From The Bottom Of My Heart

can’t seem to get myself back…everything seems beyond reach, i’m feeling down, the world seems to be moving but not me….the reasons r just unfathomable….i just wonder wat makes ppl unhappy…it’s not tat i’m unhappy, though i’m not happy either….i do still laugh n smile but i’m feeling rather discontented with life rite now for reasons i have no grip on….am i going through a phase rite now??….if it is so, i juz would like to noe wat phase it is i’m facing…well i can smile 1 moment but pull a long face the next n it’s worse when the roots are unfound….i’ve got a feeling i’m getting very disconnected from a lot of things

was down for a few hours on saturday evening due to certain family issues that always seem to drain away my mood more than i think they ought to probably cuz i’m so fed up with all the same things happening over n over again over the past few years and months….history always repeats itself in my household that i wonder when a line is going to b drawn for sure especially in matters that do not get resolved and are always brought up in da middle of any heated conversation….anyway, went to tesco with mum afta d all day low period and bought sum basic items for da new rampai house i.e. clothes line, hose, n a pair of slippers…received a msg from karin bout a simpang lima 2 reunion tmrw (sunday) to be held in jusco, where else to meet but mcd’s…again….probably afta tmrw’s reunion they mite consider changing the location for subsequent reunions…..am still wondering who else besides karin, sien n me are gonna attend the reunion…..it’s been a long time…..

attended the subang rotary club charity dinner last nite….it was great to see the performances of the young dancing to the beat of cha-cha, rock n roll, latin n sorts….initially i was quite hesitant to go but it was not tat bad after all….woke up tis morning to go down to pj for sum stuff n went to new paris for lunch…it’s still beyond comprehension how they serve gud food with the parting of little $$$ on the customers’ part considering it’s located in pj where food should cost more than wat we get in klang…probably restaurants in klang are catching up too fast with those in pj that they dun even realise they have surpassed their counterparts in terms of charges, which is a bad premonition for wat there is to come in future…..anyway i’m still on my reports…juz got the attachments from gow a while ago n will resume work after tis….do u noe tat there is tis new product (at least juz introduced to me) called 1 drop that has da tagline ‘no more smell when passing motion’….LOL….mum gave it to me to bring back to rampai for use in the toilet, more so when we have an attached bathroom in the new house…wat we do is juz drip a drop of this liquid into the toilet bowl before getting busy wif our business so tat a deodorising layer shields the smell from the water from circulating in the air…..tat’s how much research n technology have brought us thus far eh…n it’s made of plant extract, disinfectant n perfume….mum joked wif me saying it’s for me to find out next time…LOL….1 drop smell gone…it’s costly though; bout more than 10 bucks per 30 ml bottle but can last for a minimum of 6 months for a family of 4 persons (of course with the assumption tat every member uses it not more than once a day)…..anyway, i’ll juz hafta try it first before concluding on its effectiveness…heh

wow tis month is packed wif buddays of individuals…even started before july…heh…anyway it’s such a relief tat all 3 quiz and tests r over finally!!…haven’t been getting enuff sleep over the last few days but i’m not complaining cuz my body sumhow adapts quite well…hehe….but still feel a lil gold-fish like bout me eyes afta nites of alternating btwn books n sleep n books n sleep….ystd hui pei stayed over da last nite in da rampai hse with karin n i…it’s always enlightening n insightful after a chat wif her as it was last nite…we ate ‘chau tau fu’: da fried as well as da soft ones….yummy….can’t get enuff of ‘em…tmrw’s kath’s budday n da coming monday’s jackie’s…last sunday was pau’s….wat a streak in a week it’s been n about to be…o yea how can i forget bout da few old songs in my wasted pc tat i’ve managed to regain afta such a long time searching but not downloading cuz of da slow connection rate since i’m still using dial-up, so much so tat i squeaked upon discovery of the songs on a fren’s pc(fortunately i controlled tat so as not to disrupt d others in da library)….shifted to another hse today cuz of darn termites…n d old man was unbearable…i’m glad i have patience, otherwise he would haf fallen in my hands with little left to say…he was stammering actually…but he juz went overboard, posting a challenge to my now-controllable temper….ppl these days r so unpredictable especially d elders cuz when u expect them to haf all d integrity tat their age brings, u can b so mistaken….