From The Bottom Of My Heart

Peculiarity is attractive and interesting yet always seems weird, that’s why it’s called peculiarity! The darker side of it though, is as much as it is interesting, peculiarity attracts judgements; sometimes ugly ones that would seem baseless and pointless after some time. We would just embarrass ourselves or feel so guilty afterwards that it would be considered sinning because judgements passed would entice gossips and ill-thoughts.

The first thing to recall to mind whenever the judgement alarm sounds is to stay on the lookout enough to draw conclusions. That way the world and the people around would be so much more welcoming and secure to be in the company of, especially for those who are natural peculiar creatures.

***I’m stuffed with Kenny Rogers black paper quarter chicken that did not taste as nice as Pyramid’s. A lesson I learned today: Such food is better enjoyed at outlets in shopping malls or where the traffic suggests so. Our instincts are actually sometimes functional when we think they are otherwise.***

Sometimes we get inspired, then it fades away. And in the midst of getting that inspiration to translate into actions, other fade-inducing agents crop up, hammering the inspiration down many folds than it had already been lowered to.

That’s how I see myself losing the vigour sometimes, the vigour to be at the peak of what I’ve been doing. But I still can’t force myself to hold it so high for too long a time. Maybe lowering it a bit would do some good in another way, though it may not be as good as being at the apex.

Looking at it in an analogy, it’s similar to hiking a mountain top to revel in the marvel of the sunset only to descend afterwards for the sake of survival regardless of the stunning beauty of it.

There it is again, the peculiar recesses of my thinking brain.

A note on spirituality in this entry today will be that of spiritual awareness that I had the opportunity to delve into on Saturday in the shaky KTM train on my way back to Klang.

I came across this article in Reader’s Digest justly titled "Battling Addiction", which discusses the strategies used for addicts of any kind in battling their addictions, whether they be drugs, alcohol, sex or sex and love. The interesting fact to note is that organisations like Alcoholics Anonymous and other scores of copycats such as Gamblers Anonymous and Sex Addicts Anonymous, are successful in their strategies to help members combat their addictions because not only of guidance and help in monetary sense or having members share testimonies, but because of the designed programme which restores spirituality back into the lives of members.

Guidance and help are only follow-ups to the core of the realisation that members are worthy and interconnected to others as how normal people are. They have lost their sense of worthiness only due to an upbringing scarred by mostly sexual abuse and a history of drunken parents.

I quote a professor emeritus at Simon fraser University in British Columbia, Alexander, who believes that "modern society ‘mass produces’ addiction with its pursuit of personal gain, mobility and competition that rupture ties of family and community."

In such a community, he says "There’s an emptiness; and the best way to talk about it is with a spiritual vocabulary."

It makes me see clearly how important our spiritual health is. Our body is only an outward entity. The soul encompasses the mind, will and emotion. Our spirits are the core of our hearts from which the soul arises. The simple way of imagining the spirit is the place where you think, "I know that I know that I know that love and peace bring joy."

"Love, peace and joy still prevail"

***smiling to the three angelic words***