From The Bottom Of My Heart

What type of roots do you have? How do you live your precious life by? Are your roots deeply buried in the ground to at least secure from the base your ever exposed leaves, branches and solid trunk?

I read: somewhere that crying is being gentle to yourself.

I agree: that indeed it is one of the more therapeutic things to indulge in.

I have: always been gentle to myself for the sake of sanity and restoration.

I feel: a loving kindness flowing so much it is only purposeless to retain.

I want: to be able to do more than now.

I yearn: to know and to resume where it stopped.

I hope: it is only everlasting.

I think: it was wonderful.

I know: as much as I am confident enough to guess.

I am sure: I will appreciate as much as I have appreciated for so long.

May the curtains be drawn open to reveal the beautiful sky and sunlight that have always been there.

Happy Chinese New Year and happy holidays!

By this time, I have become quite rotten, waiting for the hands of the clock to move faster. I wonder why I did not apply for earlier leave instead.

This entire week has been my vaccination period for the coming Chinese New Year; how timely! I expect I will be able to eschew from the festive illness given the current immunity boost happening now.

It all started with the Gabai midnight trip. It was a highly unusual and exciting activity, nevertheless a risk to health as the water was grippingly chilly.

During the trip, I managed to develop a throat infection, which I also attribute to a low liquid level in my body. I was anticipating the worse, probably a fever and a full-blown drop in immunity, but I was quite spared the rest except for the throat and a slightly higher than usual body temperature I measured myself judging from experience.

Since I am I, not surprisingly, I relished much in having an excuse to rest for two and a half days. =]. Something negative turned into more positives. I am just delighted except once when I was alarmed into thinking a terrible viral infection was showing up due to a sudden queasiness from the antibiotics.

Looking back at Saturday night though, I still smile because of how unprepared I was and how all of us shivered! hehe!

I would do it again, with more heat (probably having cheese or a cuppa liqour would do the trick), with a huge towel, and with the post-hotspring visit again!

Woohoooo!

The server is down, operations are slow and it is now that I realise we have become so dependent on or rather, attached to our computers that they are akin to a limb of the body. I’m wondering how people before the computer generation had been able to work effectively without their personal assistant!

Well, I wonder that way, but at the same time, the logical part of me argues that it is because there is such a thing as adaptation. Put into any situation, humans have the capacity to find solutions to achieve a particular goal. Pre-computer-age people might have had a manual system going on. In fact, they would most likely have gasped the way I am stretched now, at the idea of having a computer on their side and told to put away with the manual ways of going about matters.

Adaptation – is a process, hence requires time and effort. It is not achievable within a short span of time with scarce notice and abrupt implementation.

Similarly, the process of the human self to accept a new concept may entail much reasoning and conditioning.

For example, within the half an hour of receiving an invitation to participate in an activity you really never quite thought you would ever be involved in, your mind would experience a certain amount of upheaval in regard to making a decision. If you think great, it will be a new and exciting experience, there is a good chance you will accept the offer in good will. On another hand, if you think I would love to but I think I don’t have the capacity or ability to, for whatever reason that your human self may summon, you may probably feel a slight frustration and morbidity with the fact that you want but you can’t. The most probable factor for declining is that your mind may need a fair bit of conditioning before reacting positively. The next time around, you may just jump at the chance.

I did not quite understand that process, but now I do, after a random mental dissection.

The main thing that affects our reactions is the conditioning of the mind. Different people have varying degrees of mental preparation. Some may move forward in a spark, some may need to digest a new experience over a course of time and reasoning.

Let us expand our horizons to see the inspiring sun, calming skies, sprawling mountains, restful seas, glimmering stars and captivating wildlife in their greatest glory!