From The Bottom Of My Heart

Finding joy in little things has always been a practice encouraged by many happy souls. In agreement with that line of truth, I always try to be aware of seemingly unimportant yet lovely moments, but the most authentic feeling of that truth struck me a few days ago.

Jumping and hopping in joy for something that might have seemed trivial to others on that very special day, I was brought to realisation that that was how it was supposed to feel like. On normal days, I would still leap in innocent bliss, but that day was different; a reality check two days before had intensified the sense of contentment and appreciation I felt so profoundly by just accomplishing a simple task.

The experience made me realise that when we face difficult barriers, after overcoming them, or at least in my case, understanding how the barriers can be turned into opportunities, we will be better able to appreciate tiny but significantly joyful events of life.

I rest my case; the barriers have shown me they are not all that bad since they have revealed their positive influence.

I am tough. Or so I thought I was.

Learning the opposite these past two weeks has dealt a blow to my confidence, sending me back into introspection mode.

When dealing with a weakness, and trying to get better at it, improving yet still not quite reaching the gold standard, can be quite an annoyance that lingers long enough to stab me again and again.

I tried to search for peace in myself with dealing with that weakness. It led me to switch on the memory player in my head to analyse ways to improvise, and for that matter, edges that required trimming, buffering or polishing.

Even though I discovered a few precious quotes to reprogramme the structure of my thoughts at that time, I was faced with that weakness again today. Although not as intense as before, it stifled my confidence for a recurring second time.

I am going to take out the quotes again this time and see to it that I recover from the stab wounds adequately. I’m pretty much responsible for my own recovery.

I will type them out, and reabsorb every single word:

1) Turn wounds into wisdom. - Oprah Winfrey -

2) Dare to be a fool. - Anonymous -

3) Good judgment comes from experience, and experience - well, that comes from poor judgment. - Cousin Woodman -

4) Experience is what you get when you don’t get what you want. - Dan Stanford -

5) Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck. - Dalai Lama -

It is indeed difficult to predict where an unattached root may find a comfortable soil as solid long-term ground for support whilst growing.

No matter how much independent yolk the root may have to sustain an equitably healthy growth, the need for support in turbulent times carries no less a weight. Prodding and poking through various types of soil, to find a variant with compatible nutrients, it is either a great coincidence or a well-deserved fortune that one with well-matched moisture level and nutritional components may be discovered.

What next for the root?

To ascertain if the soil is not catering to other roots.